The beauty of the internet is that you get to choose what you put out there to people-- so unless you follow my Facebook and read a few of my super "Debbie Downer" posts, you may not have known that I was depressed. Honestly it was bound to happen, I tried my best to avoid it, prepared for it knowing it would be a struggle since it was after Leeland was born, but sometimes life just gets a person. Life can be stressful-- and I let it stress me out.
One of the things that I have come to appreciate about blogging is the few "real" women out there blogging. I used to follow LOADS of blogs and keep up with reading each and every one, but lately I gravitate to those few ladies who are honest and truthful. They tell it like it is-- they aren't happy, happy all the time. I want to be one of them. I want to be real.
So there you have it folks-- typed out for all to read. Post Partum Depression is no joke. It's very real and it's a daily struggle for many.
So what has happened with us in the past month:
-Hayden turned 3 months old and even tried some rice cereal for the 1st time.
-We gave potty training an attempt with Leeland, wasn't a total fail but we also haven't hit the point where it "clicked" yet so we're back in diapers. We plan to give it a try again soon.
-I got a new bathing suit which I am in LOVE with! It's super cute, and honestly pretty sexy to be a one piece. And it is a "control top" or spanx like suit, so it sucks in the post baby belly. Never, ever pictured myself at age 25 being stoked about spanx like things, but I also never pictured myself at 25 with two kids. Mmkay!
-I started a new Bible Study at church on Wednesday mornings. We're doing the Beth Moore "James" study, they offer child care, so I'm not only enjoying the study but also the adult time.
-MOPS (Mothers of PreSchoolers) came to an end for the year. I have already registered for next year, and even sort of volunteered myself to be a table leader.... what was I thinking? Haha.
-I started running AGAIN, after being interrupted, and unmotivated from the depression. Kind of amazing how running exerts lots of energy, and yet the days that I run, I have more energy. Doesn't make sense, but exercise is good for my body and my mind. Plus it's "Mommy time."
-We got a pre-approval from a bank to try to buy a house. Still sort of a long shot and our budget is pretty small, so we're trying to keep from getting too excited but it is kind of fun to think about being out of the apartment and into our own home.
-Leeland became that kid that knows all of the characters on Nick Jr. I tried to avoid it, but when you have a newborn and you're in a funk yourself, TV becomes your friend. He never used to sit and watch like this but now he's really into it. Trying to limit it daily, but depending on the weather, outdoors isn't always an option.
-I celebrated another Mother's Day. Daniel had to work all day, so it was truly a day spent with my boys. Love them!
I'm sure there is more that isn't coming to mind at this moment. But I'm back to blogging, and more inspired. The Lord has taught me SO much in this past month that I wouldn't even know where to begin-- so much about being appreciative, about perspective, and I have truly felt his hand taking care of me and literally lifting me out of the funk.
"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace.
In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have
overcome the world. " --John 16:33